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I Had a Donut & Other Confessions of the Whole 30

I Had a Donut & Other Confessions of the Whole 30

So yesterday morning I had a donut. That's right, I said it.

It was totally against my will. I was innocently walking down the street when a passerby came running towards me and stuffed the donut right down my throat. I had no choice but to swallow it. I had no choice but to chew it. I had no choice but to delicately and methodically taste each ounce and molecule of that donut. & I found it to be glorious.

Of course this is a metaphor. You may be wondering "why would she start this post with an untrue hyperbolic metaphor?" Well, it's not just any metaphor. It's a freaking awesome metaphor because it's kind of true--"kind of" in the sense of not really at all and "true" in the sense that it's exactly how powerless I felt.

I woke up early yesterday morning and I felt that familiar feeling of disappointment like when I file my taxes with H & R block and they originally guess that my return will be 5k but then as I continue filling it out, it turns out my return is nothing. Yes, that level disappointment. I'm disappointed because I chose to stay up late watching some mediocre Netflix original series last night with Ryan and we didn't get to bed until 1AM. Disappointed because C & A woke up three times to feed and a handful more times than that, seemingly just for the amusement of having us exit our sleep, leave our room and give them a greeting of hushes and tired eyes. Disappointed because it was 7:30AM and they usually sleep an hour later. 

I muscled through the disappointment like the champion I am. I got up, changed the girls and started playing with them. I thought "I got this" with the confidence of a Girl Scout who is selling assorted nuts but asks if people are interested in cookies first to get them to say yes. I played with them. I washed the dishes. I fed them, changed them and did a load of laundry.

Clairvaux and Adelaide started to get sleepy and I looked at the clock. Only an hour had gone by. Eight more hours until my husband comes home and helps-- "I can't do this" I thought with the insecurity of a used car salesman who won't stop calling it a pre-owned vehicle. 

"I'll just have coffee". It's technically allowed in the rules. I had been avoiding because it's too hard to not have the cream and sugar. But I was SO exhausted. My friend was coming over and offered to pick up coffee along the way. All the planets aligned perfectly for the first time in the universe's history. I was getting my coffee. 

Then came the text that changed everything "I can just go through the drive-through at Dunkin Donuts". I quickly texted back asking for an iced coffee when I just couldn't help it, I put in the request for the glazed donut too. She arrived at my house. I politely thanked her and devoured it like only a person deprived of sweets does. It was a truly moving experience. I choked up. Not really, but it was the kind of amazing moment when you feel a cosmic shift happening in the universe. I had done the right thing. I knew it.

I completely rocked the rest of the day. It was awesome.

I know what some of you are thinking. "Well then Amy, you didn't really do the Whole30, did you?"

& you're right. I guess not. But the Whole29 and a donut is so much more wonderful I might just start my own diet regime.

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In all seriousness though, this is the beauty of trying to grow. Sometimes, you don't live up to the lofty expectations you set for yourself. & that's okay. Take a deep breath. Write a sarcastic blog. & eat a healthy dinner. That's what I did. I'm ready to start the day again tomorrow adhering to the rules again.

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